Baby I’m Ready

Let me just start out by saying that I miss the old school music that used to talk about love and feelings and not just about sex, drugs and money. I liked that the artists and writers weren’t afraid to be vulnerable and express how they really felt without feeling like they would be giving up some so called advantage or whatever the hell it is that folks think they need to be protecting nowadays. I mean there were some classics! So there is this old school LeVert song that I play at least 4 times in a row every time it comes up on any of my music devices – Baby I’m Ready.  Listen, if a dude doesn’t love me like what Gerald Levert is singing about, I don’t want it. Check it:  

Baby it's time, for me,

To give you all the love you need.

Baby I know, that you deserve the best,

And I can't keep treatin' you, like I did the rest. Sang!

Chorus: Baby I'm ready, to give you all of my love, (All of my love)

Girl I'm tired of playin' games,

So many girls I can't even name.

Baby I'm ready(Baby I'm ready), to give you all of my love,

Baby not just a little bit,

I wanna give you all of it.

Baby I know, that you need mornin', noon, and evenin' love,

And I just ain't been givin' you my time.

But girl I wanna give you, every little bit

Every little piece, every little part of me,

Show you my love, just can't be beat. Naw, baby.

Chorus

All my kisses belong to you,

Take my heart in your hand,

And do whatever you wanna do with it baby, hey hey.

My love, my love, my love, my love, my love (goes deeper than the eye can see)

I've made mistakes before, so won't you please forgive me.

Oh baby, oh my sweet little baby!

I'll give you anything, *Girl I'm tired of playin' games*,

Just ask me and I'll give it to you baby.

So won't you give me one more chance,

Give me one more chance, (baby not just a little bit)

We can have an everlasting romance.

Baby, baby, baby I'm ready.

To give you all of my love, all of my kisses.

Girl I'm tired of playin' games, I don't wanna play no more,

I don't wanna play no more.

Baby I'm ready, to give you every little piece, every little part of me, baby.

Baby not just a little bit, (not just a little bit),

I wanna give you all of it.

Yo!! This man said he’s ready to give ALL of his love, not just a piece or a little bit, but he wants to give her all of it. That’s key. He even went so far as to tell her to take his heart in her hands and do whatever she wanted to do with it. If that ain’t about the utmost trust and the business! Now I have had a lot of dudes call me baby, but ain’t none of the dudes given me this level of love and trust here. That’s what I want, a man who isn’t holding some of his love back for whatever reason. I’m an all or nothing type of chick so I don’t want a man who is holding back a part of his love for an ex, or cause his momma said so, or cause his homeboys or his cousins/brothers/frat brothers/etc may call him soft or weak or whipped, or cause he’s been hurt in the past or cause he’s got whatever issues/insecurities in what I got versus what he got, I want 100 % of what he has to give cause I’m willing to give the same in return.

 What exactly is it that makes us hold something back and not give those we say we care about 100% of us? Is it that that we are always anticipating the worst? Do we not feel like we are deserving enough to get someone’s all and therefore don’t give someone ours? Are we willing to hurt someone else first in order to make sure we aren’t the ones hurt? I think it takes a very strong person to make themselves vulnerable enough to put themselves out there for no matter what may come. Will we get hurt sometimes? Sure. I know I have. But honestly, without risk there is no reward. The payoff can be so much greater when we open ourselves up to the possibility of something better by just letting go and seeing what happens. Right now I’m speaking about love but this can happen in all aspects of our lives. I know when I started looking for new opportunities and ways to get out of my comfort zone and expand my skill set, I was able to get a job that started to feed my love for travel (hey the way to my heart is with a plane ticket or something romantic 😉). I mean right now I’m in the middle of a 5 week, 7 city work travel tour and writing from one of my swings to the West Coast (What’s up LA!!). The payoff is getting the see all my folks in cities I’ve either lived in or visited and having new or great experiences, plus getting my skymiles, hotel and car points up lol.

At the end of the day, we all need to think about whether we want to live in a safe little box that we THINK we can control, or be willing to say, hey, I’m ready to give my all and see what happens.

I’m ready. Are you?

Peace.

 

Not too much to ask for is it? ;-) 

Boomerang

Y’all remember that toy from Australia folks used to have back in the day (and if we want to get technical, it was also a weapon used by the indigenous people), it was curved and when you threw it out into the air it always came back to you? Come on you know it, say it with me…the BOOMERANG! I’ve clearly never delved into how that toy/device worked or what made it come back and why but I’m clearly fascinated by how this physical and literal item has such a metaphorical impact on our lives.

Most people who know me well know that one of my favorite movies is, what else – Boomerang (I love it when a plan comes together 😀). If you’ve never seen it (and if you are Black, I’m revoking your Black Card immediately) head to whatever it is you watch for movies and find it ASAP. it’s chock full of shenanigans, laughter, aha moments, love, friendship, arguably one of the best movie soundtracks ever and one of the livest all-star casts ever, but I digress. The main premise of the movie is about the whole what goes around, comes around, don’t do someone wrong cause you gonna want them back type of thing. It sucks you in and gets you involved and it’s great- though of course the mainstream audience hated on it. Some folks can’t take Eddie Murphy as the playboy seriously, but as for me, I know every scene and line in the ENTIRE movie (cause I seriously think I’ve seen that thing no less than 50 times, cut me some slack that movie came out in ’92 lol).

It’s amazing how life imitates art- toys, movies, songs, books, whatever. How many of you have been in a situation where you walked away or had someone else walk away (whether you understood why or not) and then you or THEY came back? I can raise my hand right there folks. I’m totally baffled by the number of guys who left and hit that U-turn. Now my BFF swears I be “doing something” to these dudes that be having them come back lol - but I don’t! Honestly, what really trips me out is that in all the times that these dudes hit the boomerang, I NEVER CHANGED. I was the exact same person I was when they left, or decided it wasn’t gonna work, or that they didn’t want what I wanted, or they got mad or in their feelings over some b.s. or (and this is most important) they didn’t communicate and it just fell apart from there (cause communication is key #2 for me boo). I wanted the same things as before, I acted the same way, I looked the same (or better ;-)), I handled business the same, I stayed sweet and friendly, I still know Jesus but cuss a little, I still get my money and pay my bills, still got a life and friends, still had the same personality, communication style and intelligence, I was still – Me (notice I never said I was perfect). Yet in still, I had someone who decided to tell me he loved me AFTER we stopped talking and he moved to another state, mind you, he used to live around the corner (wait, what?), someone else who took about 10 years to apologize and admit their part in our demise (but we are super cool and still talk to this day (he’s a great encourager for me) I’ve even looked out for him in some crazy situations), another dude who wanted to start talking about and sending all kinds of relationship stuff AFTER I decided to bounce because he was wasting my time and we clearly weren’t on the same page about where we were trying to go (slow blink), Another dude who got more than 1 opportunity, hurt me a lot and legit wanted another opportunity, nah playa I’ve learned my lesson (and everybody I know would have killed me cause they used to be on his team but after the 2^nd time was like hell naw).

Sad...

I'm officially done when I'm indifferent...

This is why I said communication is so important!! 

So, that calls to question, what did change? Did they change? Did their feelings change all of a sudden? Did they get to the other side of the grass and realize it wasn’t really greener but actually artificial turf? Did they realize that rash decisions led them down the wrong path? Did they let their emotions write a check their ass couldn’t cash? Were they just lonely? Did they actually “love” me at ANY point? I don’t know. I may never know, because none of these boomerang’s ever worked out. I’m not Halle Berry and none of those guys are Eddie Murphy. You see this life isn’t a movie with a guaranteed happy ending. Each day and experience is another piece of the script being written and you never know what’s coming in the next scene, but I do know I have learned to start ducking and dodging these boomerangs like the matrix (smirk). We’ll see how that goes.

Peace.

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·         The Lonesome Dove Boomerang – This one doesn’t know how to be alone so it will go to whomever is closest or will keep it from being by itself

·         The Glitters but ain’t Gold Boomerang – This one shines brightly and is all about the flash and razzle dazzle but really ain’t about shit, doesn’t do what it says it should do as a boomerang, flies then falls

·         The Wishy Washy Boomerang – This one will start out strong but may not make it back because it doesn’t know if it wants to fly or fall to the ground, very wobbly

·         The Rock Boomerang – This one is dependable and great at what it does and has been honed to go and come back but belongs to someone else so it is no longer on the market

·         The Mystery Boomerang – This one you can’t quite figure out, has the good qualities of the rock boomerang, but it does what it does, won’t do the same thing twice but will always come back

·         The NonBoom Boomerang – This one won’t fly cause it’s bent out of shape cause it’s always in its feelings – can be used as a conversation piece though

·         The Whodini Boomerang – This one starts off as an excellent looking device then disappears midflight in the blink of an eye, with no explanation never to be seen again. Makes you wonder why it was ever given to you or on the market in the first place